sigh...I dunno. lol thats how most of my posts start. i just watched spawn the movie and I guess it gave me stuff to think about again. damn - i do too much of that. well anyways, I think november its time to let go of rae...forever. actually, I dont know if thats what I think, but i suppose its....wise. she's got all she ever wanted, and well...i can just do more damage. ive hurt her enough, and i do regret the way I treated her. I shouldve just accepted it all from the beginning. because afterall, i'm not the one that lost, she is. i dunno...a crap fuck it.