Many people have asked me: Why? Why did you get back together with Raw, after she went through hurting me the way she did. I have no answer, because they would not understand. The true reason though is, and it would be my answer if people would understand: Rae never had the intention to hurt me, she never really knew what she did and why. Rae was confused, lost in her thoughts. Lost in her past with Joel. The true reason: She stood under influence. I know Rae. When I say that, I mean that I know Rae from the inside. From the outside she might be a beautiful, sexy, american chick who smokes, who gets hyper from Mountain Dew, but deep deep sinde, Rae is a very talented and emotional girl with a background from the native indians. She's bound strongly to her grandfather and when she's not influenced by others at school and when she's all alone, she might be a deep thinker. Wondering if there's more to her life, thinking about the past as much as the future. thinking about the real values of her life.