Dunno about that mood, but whatever. *sigh*...god I so wish Rae could open up to me. Its right infront of me - I can see her troubles and her feelings, without anyone telling me. As she writes: i hate work... i hate school... i hate parents.. i hate me... i hate everything... I knew all of that from the beginning, but what pains me is the fact that she can't seem to open up to me. What does she hate about work? What does she hate about herself? Without me knowing, I can't be there to support her, and thats all she said she wants - for me to be there and support her. Rae doesn't seem to be able to trust anyone...not even me. :( So closed up like I used to be. Pretending to be happy, saying things she doesn't mean, hurting people she doesn't want to hurt...I'm not being specific, but I can clearly see the picture... :( I hope she'll find peace around me, during xmas and maybe there might be a chance to really make it clear to her, that it can't go on this way. I really do need to talk to her - in person that is.... *sigh*