well lots has been happening really since my last post. lets see...that was when Rae got taken out to dinner by Ryan. Well...every other day when shes at work and shit, she says that her shift ends at 9:30, but she doesnt get home until like 11:00 or midnight. (wonder why...) and its just sorta bringing me down because im just like laying there alone at home, watching movie after movie and its no fun. we're talking again, so thats good i suppose. But her attitude is just... i mean she lied to me. She said she was gonna hang out with max today and shit, and yesterday was kinda funny cuz she came home and I pretended to be asleep for like several hours, and she just kept me lying in her bed, while she talked to Ryan on the phone and shit. So through that conversation I found out that they had sex and all, and that they will spend the day at a hotel or something today. "Cheap Rooms for cheap girls..." lol. anyways.. it all just sucks, but its pretty interesting actually. I sorta see a pattern in her dating strategy and I was gonna talk to like Danny to figure this one out, but like, she asked Ryan on the phone why he loves her...why it was her that he loved..and shes done that with me too, exactly the same wording and pronounciation. really strange... anyways, im eager to see how long this thing with Ryan will last...i cant see a 23 year old honestly falling in love with an 18 year old. but ok...lol anyways, i gtg soon so ill write more later.