The week went on quietly, and after Rae and I talked, we sorted things out together and she took two 98% reliable tests, which both turned out negative. Throughout this time, many things went through my mind. I never wanted to get Rae into this, and if she was going to have it, I'd leave behind a family. I wouldn't be there for the birth of my own son. I never had been there for Rae. My guilt will always be deep inside me, the times I hurt her; and I won't forgive myself. At home I cried my heart out. She had been right to be mad at me because of the Felix I have become. On the other hand, I'm so glad to see that she understood the feelings I have for her and why I'm so protective over here. I love Rae, she's my baby and as much as I give her the freedom she needs, as much do I want to protect her. I see something that could corrupt Rae; I want her to be aware of it and make a right choice.