I get physically depressed when she's not at school, when she's at the pool in the morning and I don't see her until break, I get depressed when we split after lunch to go to our classes, I get depressed during art, because I don't share the same lunch with her at those days. I get so depressed in all these moments, that I become unsocial, I don't, or try to talk to people, but find it hard because all I do want to talk about is Rae. Constantly I worry if she's ok, and though I can't find reasons to suspect otherwise, I still worry. I cry at death-scenes, because I get a feeling of lose - having to loose Rae. I get excited about the phone ringing, because I think that Rae is on the phone. There's not a moment I don't think about family life with Rae, not a moment I let her go in my heart.