why... i was just wondering. for three years - for three years, almost every day, or several times a week - I have kept reading rae's online journal, to keep up with her life. see what she's doing, what she's up to... but why. its not like i dont regret it or anything, but about a year ago i thought i was totally through with it. over it, fresh start - everything. putting it bluntly - why the fuck do I still care? i guess what my mom said today was right. I'm too nice to everyone... :(