Listening to: the music in my head
Feeling: bitter
lemme play out my day for ya ....
around 12 pm:
skyler comes over to my house. woo hoo! i wasn't expecting him to be over here. "i need my necklace back," says skyler. "ok," i said. "What's wrong?" he looked rather sad or upset or something. "todd and i just got into a fight and he kicked me out." wait. stop. lemme start breathing again. "what?" i asked. "todd kicked me out. i'm walking up to tremonton to my dad's house." "come in here," i lead him to my room. "now tell me what is going on."
so pretty much he got kicked out. i bawled. a lot. i hate to cry but i cried so much when he said that. i don't want him to go to tremonton. i would never get to see him again.
"well what do you want me to do?" he asked. "do you want me to go?" "of course i don't want you to go babe," i replied. "of course i want you to stay here but i don't want you to have to live with todd."
so he said he would figure out something. i took him to josh's house. he said he would see if he could stay with josh for a while until he could get ahold of his brother.
1:30-ish
went out to pizzookies for lunch. had a pizza. not a whole one just 2 pieces. i feel fat now. oh well
2-ish
get home begin washing grandma's car. its really hot when its almost 100 degrees out and inside of a navy interiored car. i had to vaccuum it too.
2:45-ish
"hailey, do you have time to take a phone call?" asked my mom. "hell yeah, who is it?" i asked back. "its skyler." SWEET!! i'm uber excited now.
"hello?" "hey babe" "whats up?" "nothing. josh said i could stay with him for a few days." "awesome. that is good" by now i'm beginning to tear up again. *sniff* "are you sure you're gonna be ok?" "i don't know." "well i don't want you to be sad babe." "its ok." how am i supposed to feel when my boyfriend just got kicked out of his house? "what are you guys doing tonight?" "i don't know yet. tasha might come over to see james." "cause we should all go do something. i wanna play in the hot tub." "well i'll call you later tonight if we can do anything. james says we probably can." "ok." "well i better get going i'm using up their phone line" "ok. call me tonight." "ok" then i talked to james for a little bit but thats not really important.
so that is how my day went.
remember the love letter that i wrote about? remember how i said i would never give it to skyler? well i gave it to him. i didn't know when i would get to see him again. so i did. i hope he doesn't think i'm retarded or anything like that. oh well. i'll have to get over it. i have to expect anything. i guess thats what i get for giving it to him huh?
well i think this is long enough now ...
-YourFiend
and it's hard giving the object of your desire a love letter...oh boy is it hard.