Nothing bad has happened, but I feel like curling up in my bed and crying myself back to sleep. Something was missing when we said goodnight last night, but I didn't feel empty inside. The emptiness is left for this morning. sad confused scared anxious nervous lonely I miss him already. I don't want to go to work. I smell really bad. I'm a little chilly. My breath still stinks after I brushed my teeth. This morning sucks and I've only been up for an hour. I think its the hormones. Birth control sucks. But if only I could talk to him, have him by my side. Comforting me. Telling me everything will be ok. I think then I would feel better. Perhaps I'll swim this morning before work. Maybe I'll swim off all of my emotion. The cool chlorine water will wash away all my fears and worries. But I still feel like crying right now.