Listening to: To Be Alone With You - Sufjan Stevens
Feeling: unsettled
We argued this morning. And ever since then, things haven't been normal.
It would have been a perfect day.
The leaves are turning
The canyon is beautiful
The air is chilly
The sky was partly cloudy
I'm wearing long sleeves
I visited my family and some friends
I was invited to sing
I played with my puppy
It would have been perfect
if we hadn't have argued.
I don't even remember what we argued about. It was probably something stupid. Not meaningful. But we'd been doing so good. We hadn't argued in, how long? And this one, not necessarily ruined my whole day, just made it unperfect.
And I want to cry. I miss my family, I miss my old house, I miss my puppy. I miss the simplicity of my high school life. I miss not having bills to pay, I miss eating my mom's cooking. I miss all the things I thought I hated.
Little did I know, those were the things I would later learn to love.
But what did I know?
what do I know?
family is one thing that i will always miss.
it was always the little things that got me...
how you get in arguments with your mother over some petty shit, or where you put sumthing or a fist fight with a brother.
you miss even the bad times.
nothing is perfect so dont be bummed out if you have an imperfect day.
the trees still sway,
life still goes on.
make the best of it please.
don't end up like me.