I keep trying to find the bad things. I can't seem to find anything good. Is it all bad? Is there any good at all? Should I end this now and be miserable? Or should I stick it out and be miserable? Its the same either way. But if I stick it out, there is a chance I could be happy again. --------- It seems like you are hiding something from me. Like there is something you want to tell me, but can't. I want you to be able to tell me anything. I want to know what is going on. It'll make me a lot less miserable if you just tell me than if you don't tell me. When you don't tell me things I think. I think of all the bad things that could be happening. I think of how terrible you could be to me. I don't know if you'll ever be like that, but when you don't tell me things and leave me to wonder, thats what I think. I hadn't cried for a few days. I thought I was doing ok. But then something comes up and I just have to. I can't help myself anymore.