i hate it when i'm mad at him. i hate myself for it. but he left me no choice. i love him. but i'm mad at him. and i'm mad at myself for being mad at him. but does he deserve it? does he deserve my anger toward him? should i be mad at myself for being mad at him? or should i just get over it and say to myself "you are mad at him and he deserves it. now quit being a baby"? no. i don't want to be mad at him. but i am. but i love him. but you already knew that. ------------------ today is not my day. maybe tomorrow.