Are there any single people left out there? First t, then k, now r?! In one town I feel left out because I have a boyfriend, in this one I feel left out because he's only my boyfriend. In my heart, deep down I know I don't want to get married yet. I know I'm not ready for it, I know I need to wait. But when I'm surrounded by matrimony it puts pressure on me, and him, to jump in. I feel alienated by my own friends. On another note, what is the point of the new insurance if it isn't even going to cover my birth control? Its fifty bucks with it, fifty five without it. What a fucking difference. Granted my mom did offer to help me with the difference (it used to be thirty dollars instead of fifty). How lovely of her.at least she isn't paying for it totally like some girls I know. Money has been a bit tight these past few weeks. We still have some of course. But I still can't afford contacts. Which is why I've been wearing my current ones for probably three months. But he has decided to pay off all (minus school loans) of his debt with his tax return. Thank god. Its not going towards shoes or skiing gear or other frivolous things like last year. He'll be (almost) debt free: translation: we'll be (almost) debt free. I love him.