Its snowing outside, I'll have a white Christmas. Christmas is tomorrow. I'm home with my family and some friends. But yet, through all these wonderful things, I'm not happy. I just wish I could be able to trust him to be home with his family. I didn't think that anything bad could happen with his family. But last time it did. It seems like I'm always sad. Its not true. I've been happy. I really have. I've been working a lot, meeting new people, making new friends. But I never feel like I need to document the happy things, just the sad ones. And that makes me seem like a depressed little whiner. But this holiday back home, I've just been worried. I'm worried that Thanksgiving will happen during Christmas. --------- I wish I could trust you 158.3% again.