My tummy is full, my head is wobbly, my eyes are heavy, my brain is off. And we're going over Spanish. Why am I even here? What purpose is my body serving in this desk in the back row of the classroom? I don't understand, I don't care. I am full of complaints, nothing is pleasing me. Even snuggling with boyfriend, all I"ve wanted to do all day, didn't make me happy. coffee isn't helping cigarettes aren't helping boyfriend isn't helping I want to sleep cry snuggle leave it all behind --------- My tail bone is still in pain. Sometimes it takes the breath out of me, I want to scream in pain. Its dreary today. It started out as a good day. I was pretty, I was going to all my classes. I didn't feel like throwing up, I didn't want to cry. What happened?