Listening to: Hyperballad - Bjork
Feeling: petrified
This will be the second time I have lost my entry. I'm trying to practice my patience, but I'm running out of it.
I almost don't want to continue. But I was so set on having a long entry full of words and thoughts. Since I've written words and thoughts twice now, I'm running out of them.
Surely I have more thoughts than that, she thinks.
I'm excited for today. Its been a good Tuesday so far. The weather is beautiful. I love walking outside, feeling the cool cement on my feet, the birds chattering back and forth, the cool air and light sky. Its much more invigorating than the bitter and dark mornings of winter.
My first final is today. A comprehensive one at that. I'm at a loss as to why professors insist upon comprehensive finals. We've already been tested on the material once, why again? To make sure we've learned it 'real good'? Its a general class, I don't care to learn it 'real good.'
I didn't smoke yesterday, at the point where I 'needed' it the most. I am learning to take my frustrations out on things other than the cancer stick.
I've also started walking fairly regularly. I think I'm seeing results, but maybe I only want to see them so I'm making them up. I think I'm on the track that I want to be on. Quitting smoking, getting skinnier.
Today will be a good day.
it's like a compulsion , and there have been so many times when i was glad I did. yay for walking, by the way. and superduper yay for quitting the smoking!