... I do, however, enjoy the new forum that has been created. Its fun to read what other people have to say about the site and hear their ideas. I took a ride up to campus today. Got my student card, found the buildings my classes will be in (more or less), checked out my book situation. Five hundred fucking dollars! Thats my entire refund check right there. So much for hopefully saving some of it. I need to get smarter so that I can try to get a scholarship. Less money I'll have to pay back in loans. Zach said if he gets to be night supervisor he'll get a raise, meaning I won't have to work as much. Meaning I'll have to focus on school more. School is a stressor in my life. I have pressure on me to find out what I want to do with my life, then I have the added stress to finish school once I finally decide what I want to do. Maybe all that stress will affect my diet, I'll be so damn busy that I won't have time to eat? Haha, I can hope. The girls standing in the row next to me are unnecessarily loud for a library. These college-aged girls are talking about where they are going on vacation. Europe and Central America are among their picks. Boy, how I long to have money to blow on a fucking cruise when I'm going to fucking college. What would it be like to not have rent to pay? Not have to keep on top of my money, no electric bill, phone bill. Not having to worry if I will have enough money to last me two weeks. Can I buy groceries? Is it possible that I'll be able to go out to eat once? Some people just have it so god damn easy, and scoff when us who actually work for our living say we can't afford to play. There are so many things that I want, new clothes, shoes, furniture, a fucking cruise. Wow, didn't see that one coming. Maybe one day I'll have money. Unfortunately I'll be too old to enjoy it.