Feeling: empty So Far Away there are so many things that i want to tell him. yet i can't seem to get myself to say them. i don't even know what i want to say. but i want him to just know them. i don't want to have to tell him. i want him to know. she still has feelings for him. and i know he still cares for her. but he was getting used to just being friends with her. and i was getting used to them just being friends too. is it wrong for me to wish something like that? i mean, he doesn't even live by me. he might move to colorado. is it wrong for me to want him to not be with her so i can have him? even though, i can't have him? it probably is. we talked about marriages on the phone. and past relationships. its hard for me to talk to a guy i like about my past relationships. but with him, i can say anything. except for what i want him to know. i was laying on my bed talking to him. curled up on my side. perfect for him to curl up with me. we could lay there until we fell asleep. if only he were here ...