Feeling: eh its twenty to two in the morning. i have class at ten. and at eleven. and at one. i need z's. thomas didn't like me as much as i thought i liked him. but then again i didn't like him as much as i thought i liked him either. i hurt another boy today. god i'm a bitch. (vent time) i have a friend. we'll call said friend jasper. i never liked jasper as anything more than a friend. today, just bumming in my hall i met some other guys. we'll call them timothy and roberto. they are friends of jasper. they hung out with us in my room too. i flirted with roberto, a lot. but i flirt with everyone. no big deal. well, timothy and roberto left to do, something. jasper asked me if i wanted to go on a walk. so, i went. it was fun. i just figured it was a friendly walk. jasper started telling me about all his female troubles: he's never had a girlfriend, he's only been on a few dates, he's never kissed anyone. i give him some advice i think i would like to hear if i was in his position. on our way back to the dorms he asks me out. now, i just got out of a relationship and don't really want to get into another one anytime soon. and i don't like jasper romantically. at all. so i give him the "i'm not really wanting a relationship right now" shpiel. he says ok. later tonight we went over to roberto and his roommate, we'll call him samuel's house. i flirted with roberto a lot cause he flirted with me. i cuddled with roberto on his bed watching a movie. jasper, timothy and samuel walked in. i could tell jasper was a little upset by his face. a few minutes later jasper walked out of the house all pissed off. i feel really bad cause i told him i didn't want a relationship at all, yet there i was on the bed with roberto. then roberto and i started kissing (jasper was gone at this point). this has nothing to do with jasper right now. i just felt really awkward cause i've only known roberto for a day, not even. should i feel like a slut? should i not? that is the question. and jasper is sitting right next to me. so to save an awkward moment for later i'm going to head off. thanks for the vent. i love... . . . . . . . me