its so hard not to cry. its happened three times now. am i not good enough? is there something i'm doing that isn't right? what am i doing to make you do this to me? i want to spend the rest of ever with you. but i can't if this keeps happening. i thought the first time you promised not to. the second time i forgave you. this time... i just don't know what to do. all i can do is cry. i can't even think about what i should be doing. i've missed class, not done homework, i've been slacking off on everything because all i can think about is this. its consuming me. and i hate it. i hate my life as of late. i don't know what to do anymore... besides cry