I'm worried. It happened a long time ago. But it still happened. When we were apart from each other. I'll be gone for longer this time. His internet sucks but it still works. I keep trying to take my mind off of it, but its not working. Maybe a cigarette would do it. All I want is to be certain that it won't happen. All that I ask for is that I will know 158.3% that it won't happen. Thats what I want for my birthday ok?