yes!! its SNOWING!!!! im so excited, its not sticking or anything, so i cant go out and run around and play, (i LOVE acting like a little kid, it makes me forget things that make me sad) but maybe if it is snowing in november we can hope for a snowday yet!! by the way, if you were wondering, i dont live in like the extreme north, haha. i live in st louis, and i cant believe its snowing here! the rest of the family is here...the ones that actually want to be here, but im sick of being in the house. right now i live for sunday, and church, and getting the fuck out of my house. for some reason i have been reminiscing(sp?) a lot today. i was thinkin about this guy who i talked to for a long time and then he just turned mean on me..and how fast people change and suddenly their friends arent good enough for them, etc. life is pain, but im over it. i had a revelation last night, i realized why i dont trust anyone anymore. there was this guy that i trusted, and he used me, like MAJORLY...like im not even gonna write it on here, because im ashamed of it, but that is why i stopped drinking, is because of that...and i thought he would write to me, and he didnt, because he told me he loved me, and he didnt....and i trusted him, and so now i dont trust anyone, and i dont get hurt, and i HATE it. i want to be able to trust people soo bad...yesterday some people told me that they would keep being my friend no matter what, that nothing could change their view of me, and i started crying really hard because i wanted to believe them so bad but i couldnt...and i hate that, im so sick of me acting all this bull shit like i dont care if people betray me...i dunno how much longer i can take it, but i dont know how to trust anyone...i try, and then they betray me, and im not surprized. i hope that someone out there can show me that people arent all fucking assholes, that there are some good people that i can trust. wow...i feel slightly better, but it doesnt help the fact that i cant trust anyone and all that shit. fuck, i dont even trust my family. i dont even trust myself, i probably trust myself the least out of anyone actually. oh well...i hope i can get over it soon. second thanksgiving is tonite, so i cant go to the mall with my friends. have a good day.
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone. "When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face." The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love. As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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