its inscence...i swear.

she thinks i feel that person's emotions. im starting to maybe believe her. beneath my smile, and my helpmeimabouttobreakdown laugh, i felt numb all day. i wanted to curl up and sleep until summer school is over. and then sleep some more. i felt extremely apathetic and i wanted somewhere without a lot of people. this morning i couldnt breathe at all, i had to go outside and lay flat on my back for a while. and the funny thing is, im starting not to care. maybe that was just because i was so numb and apathetic today. or maybe its just because. but i dont care as much. i think...maybe. i feel dead. i havnt had energy all day. everytime i get up im lightheaded, and i cant stand for more than a minute or so without getting uncomfortable. so numb. i hope i can sleep tonight. please, i hope i do. i dont want to be left alone in the dark with candles and smoke and dark music. not again. i need rest... i feel like im about to fall over dead. but i know im not going to be able to sleep. looks like another one of those nights...
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HI BECCA! are you goign to relay for life? j.w.

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You're really pretty.

I ♥ your header.

Your backround's cool too.

Night.

[x]Dixie[x]
#1 why are you feeling numb?

#2 where are you going that you have to get a passport?

yes. i am nosy :D
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nuh uh..

how fun!! :D are you excited???

we are doing that next summer i am excited except we are going to venice and paris and germany and spain i guess im excited because i have to get a passport too because weare going to the cayman islands! :D

we rock

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oohhh i am sure you are going to have fun. that's how my family vacations are but they aren't as bad because my sister is there and belive it or not, on vacations like those, we actually ahve fun together :/ iknow. weird. :D
yeah they are defiently inhumane. i see those and im like, just fucking watch over your kids. don't put them in a fucking leese. (SP??) then i am like, dude they are going to be protective parents and that sucks for the kids. ahhh. i hate parents but i wanna be one. its funny. :/ yeah but i gotta go i willt alk toyou later. have fun tommorow :D

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dont worry you will find yourself in time, just be your everything your heart desires