my internet insists on being screwed up 90% of the time, so i can barely get on here anymore. i think that a virus is slowly overtaking the computer, but thats probably just me. i definitly missed the concert tonight completly, my stomach was hurting so bad that i couldnt stand up straight...i feel kinda bad, it was the Hallelujah Chorus concert too... the apathy snuck up on me behind my back. im so numb, everyone asks me what is wrong and i tell them nothing, which is the truth, but i want so bad to be happy. its like im watching everyone go so fast around me and im the only one going slow huge wad of homework...and im probably gonna be forced to go to school tommorow oh heres something interesting, early this morning the power went out for like 2 hours and i had to feel my way through downstairs to find a flashlight, and i was gonna have to take a shower by candle light but it came back on. finals are next week. hopefully i can get through the week alive and unharmed. oh well. jeez, you can see my mood on the page... oh well. hopefully i can stay home tommorow, im exhausted, and still 2 hours of homework left...