im so sorry, i never realized i was thinking these things in the back of my mind. im having a conversation with stephen and things started coming out and it is scaring me to death. i cant believe i have so much damn anger on this subject. im too ashamed to talk about it, leave me to my peace. im doubting you so much, im sorry, i just cant see any reason for us to be here except for you to laugh at us. it would be like watching a soap opera, except a million times more entertaining, what with all the people starving and killing each other and shooting themselves in the mouth. and all the kids that are beaten and all the little girls who are raped and all the children who are kidnapped and every person who cries themself to sleep at night. id rather not believe in you at all then belive in that. .....its just.... i dont know how i feel about you anymore. im talking to nothing. i walked away, i heard them say poisoned hearts will never change