you were always inside me.
wow. that, kinda, hurt actually. sorry for everything.
really, i am. sorry.
i really don't realize how much i do until i look through old saved conversations. thats when it hits me like a bullet.
bang. kapow.
so. is the wound in my head or my heart? not sure.
but i will assure you it has state of the art bandages. bandages as thick as a thousand walls. inside the walls my blood is boiling.
no one taht doesnt read this knows. i dont think.
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i like this shark tooth necklace. its funny. i bought it for frankie (the name shoulda been a dead giveaway) in gulf shores, then found out he had another girlfriend at the same time as me. so. nice. shoulda known from the moment that i called his house and his mom asked if i was beth. i asked him about it and there was a long silence and he was like
who told you about beth?
and i was like, um, yer mom. and so hes like oh.wellbethisthisspecialfriendihavewearerealcloseandshe'sbeenhavingfamilyproblemsandneedstotalktosomeonealot. thats all. i promise, i would never cheat on you baby. I love you too much for that.
family problems, the classic excuse.
but, of course, that was back in my naive days when i trusted him with all my heart. when i trusted myself to trust people wiht all my heart. so i didnt think about the beth thing until i was in gulf shores and i felt like partying.
but at least i got a hat out of the relationship. haha.
its a superman one, and i like it. and if he gets it back, its gonna be in a bag fulla ashes. it still smells like the beach.
anyways, the shark tooth necklace looks better on me than it would on him. hmph. so there.
LETS RUN AROUND IN NOTHING BUT OUR UNDERWEAR AND SCREAM: I LIKE POTATO SOUP!
haha i am HYPER!
have a good day.
please exit to your left..
bye now!