i dont know what the fuck was up in that last entry. i dont even remember writing that. and no, i didnt take anything. i was probably hella tired. dont worry about me.... i just get....restless sometimes. something inside me wants to fly, but i have no wings. something wants freedom where there is only chains. so, as everything closes in on me, and i grow more and more claustrophobic of my life as the days go by, and i want more and more for somebody to just hand me something bad. i dont have wings, i cannot fly. it brings tears to my eyes. so....i must meet someone who flies. someone who will carry me with them. _____________________________________ i was completely serious about the party. what weekend is best for yall? ______________________________________ ok, well its looking like the partay is going to be scheduled for friday night may 28th. if my mother objects we shall be having it in the woods, and i will have to ask all of you to bring an extension cord. but...she wont. because she is on our 'neighborhood government' thing. and that would ruin her rep. having such a bad little out of control daughter. im mean. mwahahaha. im thinking ill invite a lot of people. i think. please share ideas/opinions.