ok, so the secret's out. i don't care. it was obvious friday. he already knows. hopefully. i dont understand why it is such a big deal that people would try to figure it out in their spare time. and YOU. leave me alone. i don't WANT to talk to you. ________________________________________ "smile! come on, smile." i'm trying, buddy. i really am. things are just hard right now. just repeat.... i will never have to live may 29th 2004 again i will never have to live may 29th 2004 again i will never have to live may 29ty 2004 again. good. and now tell yourself that today will be better. and breathe. and for god's sake, go eat something, since you only had a piece of cheese out of all day yesterday. _______________________________________ no, i didn't 'know in my heart' that it was you. it just seemed like something you would do. and i didn't want to take any chances. its a good thing i changed it isnt it? i'm shivering. and it isnt cold. ugh. ________________________________________ i shoulda known...the only way you can go from the top is down... but sometimes things seem infinite. forgive me for thinking i was right. ______________________________________