Listening to: korn-dead
Feeling: inadequate
i slept horribly last night. horribly.
it DID work, but only for a little while. i woke up at about 4 30 last night and i couldnt get back to sleep becuase i was freaking out again.
i was nervous, worrying about a million things, what if he could smell it, and what if he isn't ok?
and so i got 3 hours of sleep last night. and i cant fall back asleep. because what if they smell it.
and now i have a tummy ache that won't seem to go away. and this feeling inside that scares me deeply.
very deeply.i'm so scared for him...
oh well. im off to get rid of the smell. cheers.
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it worked. i just wish my paranoia had gone out the window with the smell.
my
music for anger:poison the well, korn
music for sadness:staind
music for feeling stagnant:the used
music for dark:lisahall is this real, papa roach singular indestructable droid
music for remembering:linkin park, dr dre, led zeppelin stairway to heaven, etc
music for right now:britney spears, everytime
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*i cant explain how i feel
ive been there many times before
ive tasted the cold steel of my life crashing down before me
but these words
they cant replace the life you
the life you waste.*
-staind, "waste"
what would your dad smell?
xxo
erica