feeling:strong, and apathetic well, i guess since i had a nervous breakdown yesterday at lunch and broke down and cried, at school, for the first time since like kindergarten, its ok to tell you all that i have another diary. its going to be deleted anyway, since my mom thought the email was spam and deleted it. its akfhasdfjk. its my pessimism diary, my negative thoughts and feelings. yeah. so heres to nervous breakdowns at school and being put under a spell. ______ well, crap. the island isnt open to tourists. i really did want to see it... i cant remember what it was called, something like poveglia... the snow needs to change to rain. snow is too happy and light. i need rain.