outside has become the soundtrack to my life. its just my song...for me, for my life, for him, for US. my life is like a music video...listening to that song just staring at the ceiling with smoke all around me and a breeze, humming it to myself when i see him, the song that reminds me of him and my life, and i heard for the first time when i saw him. because sometimes, things happen. things that shouldnt happen, but things that are supposed to. things that make me smile. things that make me want to scream and die happy. so wont you kiss me, so i can die happy. today was the best day i have had in soo long. right now, nothing can bring me down. i mean...yeah. not gonna tell. but lets say, i got a taste of what life would be like if i was with him. and i liked it and it felt good/right. lets say that i got a taste of an old truck. i love old trucks. he always did seem like a truck person im reconsidering whether or not i believe in fate. i didnt used to...now im not too sure. there are just, too many coincidences. just too many coincidences today. i have blisters on my feet, i might have a little sunburn, and let me tell you. i could not be happier right now unless it made his day, and not just mine. and im going to be nervous tomorrow...but im ready to face it with my chin up, and a smile. im completely over him.