broken flower stems

i'm digging myself deeper and deeper into this hole. every time he doesnt care i want to dress up nmore to MAKE him care. and its getting out of control. skirts and lace and pretty bows. and blush. and i just get these blank stares when there was smiles. and somehow it hurts. i think its that hole. that hole, inside of me. and nothing can fill it anymore. so i just float through my days, lunging at any oppurtunity that could be a filler for a while, like an amused glance or a smile. because NOTHING, not food, money, school, music, sleep, shopping, nothing fills this hole anymore. i imagine booze might, but im too apathetic to think about it. not like i can have any anyway. i just need...somebody someone. just somebody. ok?
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i just got done reading some lyrics, so the rhyming rhythm was kind of in my head. and then i went to read your diary entry, and it rhymed, kinda. just a thought.
and holes suck. badly. i don't know if you already figured it out, im pretty sure you probably have, but i have been doing 'stupid' things. things you used to do, and things i used to do, and we both used to do it and we used to talk about it. but shh. no telling. :)
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kait
[Anonymous]
BECCA HANCOCK... who are you trying to impress?

or am i totally off track.

because i dont know.

i have a question for you but i can't ask you on this. kbye

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