im kind of scared. my strength broke last night. just snapped. just like that. i now know that i cant help anyone else while i am like this. it would be complete hipocrisy. not practicing what i preach. last night i woke up in the middle of the night and saw the most beautiful thing. my bed is up against my window, and i looked out, and saw some clouds in front of the moon, but there were cracks between the clouds, and some light still was showing through. while i watched they kind of moved apart...who knows, maybe it was just a dream, but it was so beautiful, i almost took a picture. sometimes i like to just sit on my roof and stare at the sky. or lay on my driveway and stare at the sky. it relaxes me, and helps me get away from my troubles. its been too cold lately. no poems. bad mood.
Raver Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla -me sometimes i just sit and cry because of it all just look at all the pain that surrounds me all the broken people, the broken lives and i just start sobbing how can anyone be totally happy in a world full of so much pain? sometimes i wish for the innocence of youth but its kinda like the matrix i guess once you know that your world is fake would you really want to go along living in it? is not the real world worth the pain as long as it is real? sometimes i wonder...sometimes i wonder if i am wrong... i was thinkng about this quote today. i know i got it somewhere, but i dont know where, because i havnt seen it in a long time "with the rose comes the thorn." with the beauty and happiness in life comes extreme suffering. anyone who wont admit that is ignorant or is lying to themselves. just some random thoughts. goodnight. -me