i feel: angry, sad, my head hurts, im lonely...i feel hopeless. i feel like i want to lay down and curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out. this is a pretty personal entry, so i kind of want to make it private, but i dont care anymore really. im not liking the changes that are being made here. ill adapt, i always do. and soon ill be able to get a job so i can pay for the paid part of this site... fuck it, its gonna be private, if enough people want to know ill put it out. its just...really personal, i kind of have a feeling that its something that about half the population feels but never talks about, and i dont want people to agree with me, if its in my head that means the world is still good... im just not gonna lie anymore, im not a strong person, i thought i had made so much progress since august, and i really havnt, im not a strong person at all. im the person that hides away my emotions on the inside, and goes up in my room at night and lets it all out. im the person who wears a smile like i wear clothes. to cover myself up. my friends, you will probably want to know waht the private entry is. ill probably put it up later if people ask.