today marks kelsey and landon's 1 month, and my one month being single. and, for the first time, i can walk with my chin up, smiling, ready to face whats ahead of me. me and nathan dont talk at all anymore. im not really surprised, it usually goes like that for me after me and someone break up. and i can truthfully say...that im ok. i just want to party. ill be planning my next one soon...how does an end of the schoolyear party sound to yall? and maybe one every month of the summer :D im getting up extra early tomorrow. i hope somethign GOOD happens. with friend. because im scared. and then theres...ace. new person. she just brought him up, and suddenly im remembering all these things i forgot. how warm he was, and things. my buddy. the comercial...i was excited. but was it actually because it was HIM? or was it because i could say, yes! i told you! im not insane, im not a liar, IT REALLY DID HAPPEN. he really exists, somewhere out in the world, that man whose friend said he (the soldier) loved me, he exists! the one i kissed on the beach, during the storm. i needed to say that...to you. but more, to myself. i always thought that i would see him someday on tv. i thought when i got home that i would watch the news every day, but instead i stayed in my room. maybe, if anything ever starts in korea, ill watch the news. or maybe, ill realize what im doing. and let go. i need to get in the shower and do my homework. getting up extra early, ya know.