ok well an awesome friend told me how to get pics on here...so ill put one up everynow and then. keep in mind, my parents havnt given me that digital camera they promised me so most of the pictures are either very strange or have other people in them also. i cant forget. i tried so hard to, and i thought i succeeded, but i still think about it all the time. how can someone think i made that up for attention? i dont understand...i think i am gonna have to go back there when i am older and make peace with myself or something. too bad that my head will have to be a warzone until years from now. hopefully i will have good enough friends to come with me. and ill rent the room i was in. and remember everything. and enjoy myself on the beach. and ill finally be able to forget. and then ill move far away where no one has ever heard of me and make a fresh start...ima be a partier, yessiree. i push it away but it haunts my mind, the harder i try to push it away the fresher it is in my memory when i try to sleep, maybe that is why i can never sleep anymore...it takes me like 2 hours to fall asleep... ly me