i smell of smoke.
i went up to my room and lit a million candles and lit a lot of insence and read tarot cards, and meditated.
fire mezmerizes me. i sat and watched one of the flames grow and change and shrink, and it seemed almost as if it was trying to talk to me.
[/strange thoughts about setting my house on fire?]
you cant try to change me and expect me to just go along with it. you cant.
its not like that.
i got some interesting readings.i wrote one down, ill tell it to you later.
lets just say for now, that a card that kept coming up when i did readings on me, was the hermit.
a need/desire to be alone.
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[11:23]PM
god damn this, why do i keep breaking?
why do i keep breaking, tell me, why do i keep breaking?
i cant hold on...
*giggle!!*
NO.
i think we all know who im talking about. there is more than one, hinthintnudgenudge.
:)