My day for the first time went from sucky to pretty darn good. I don't know why, but I feel like I might be moving up in life. That notation is kinda scarey, but I don't care. I am so tired of feeling sorry for myself, so last night I finally finished it. From now on, I will not let my past upset me anymore. True I screwed up my friendship w/ one of my friends, but I'm not looking about. I can't do that anymore. My old friend told me, "The past is the past, we have to live in the present." I just want to thank you Sean for that advice. Those words along with 2 friends last night finally pulled me out of the abyss I was allowing myself to fall into. Last night was the part of me I never want to see again.