I'm not normally a person who is glad to annoy a friend of mine, so when one posts something about me being awfully annoying and remarks on how my boyfriend kissed me to shut me up, I get hurt. I was pissed sure, but sooner I got thinking about everything and the anger was gone. I can take what random ppl throw at me or what my mom calls me, but when a friend calls me annoying and says how they hated spending time with me, a close friend that is, it just hurts so bad. I honestly don't know why that person didn't spoke up, but she didn't. If she had, well then I would've just shut up completely. I didn't talk much, really. I was too uneasy around her boyfriend to say much. That is why I talked about what I knew. That's why, but apparently that isn't good enough anymore. I don't know why or when it happened, but honestly I don't even feel close anymore. We're more strangers each time we see each other. True we might not act like in front of each other, but I'm not close anymore and it scares me. I don't want to lose one of my pillars of strength again. I've lost enough in my lifetime and losing a good friend will just kill me. I just wish I knew why we're even still friends. I hurt, piss off, and annoy her...so why is she still my friend? I don't know, but god do I wish I did. It's too hard sometimes to see her, and that was proven last night. She was online last night, but I wouldn't buzz her and say a word. She is annoyed with me, so I guess it's back to being a shadow that won't come into the light until the light is forced onto it. Maybe it's better that way. Maybe it's better if I just leave her alone. I guess this is the end for the two of us. Goodbye my friend, we were great friends, but now we're just strangers. -Kat- I close my eyes And I can see The day we met Just one moment And I knew You're my best friend Do anything for you We've come so far And done so much And it feels Like we'll always be together Right by my side Through thick and thin You're a part of my life I'll always remember