Wednesday was the worst day I have had for a long time. My parents were mad at me for Matt popping out without notice. It's not like I knew about it and I even called them when he got here. Dad said a lot of stuff that just hurt and then Mom was good old Mom. I hated it so much. The whole thing of foreplay kept coming up and then I told them that Matt and I get called making out for just holding hands in school. They don't know what's going on there and they don't know who I am. I can't stand it. To make the pain harder, yesterday Mom said something about necking and Beth went postal. I got yelled at and snapped at by Dad just for saying that she was only saying that cause she's never had a relationship. I wasn't even being mean. I was just stating a fact and they turned on me like that. I truly hate it. It's getting so hard. I can't wait until Beth leaves. At least I won't be shut off again from my Dad. Whenever Beth's home, they go off and do stuff together and never mention anything to me. When I finally voiced my opinion about it Mom yelled at me for not having the time for dad. Okay, it's not my fault if my sister hogs all the time in the world with Dad. I hate it and it hurts. Beth can act like she's all that and did it this morning even. I just came unglued and snapped at her. I told her to just quit talking to me like that. Mom asked what it was and I told her. She did tell Beth to quit worrying about me, but it doesn't help. We have rules and she never has to obey them anymore and I get in trouble for breaking the simpliest ones. I even admitted to myself that I can't keep doing this. I just don't know how much more of this I can take before I blow up. They don't know me, and when I'm out of here. I g2g. -Kat-