I guess I really hurt Belle, and I'm truly sorry. I doubt she'll listen to me, but I am sorry. I didn't mean to hurt her. I just get tired, extremely tired, on Saturdays and need the afternoon to rest before I work again that evening. Then, when she invited me out to her place on Sunday, well I already had plans with Matt. His folks had invited me out for the afternoon/evening. It was to give all of us time to hang out. It was fun, but I know that it hurts Belle. I hate having fun when I know she feels like I'm pushing her away. I'm not. I'm really not pushing her away. I just have a lot of commitments and a full agenda. So, Belle, if you read this...I'm sorry that I hurt you and I know you'll probably not forgive me anytime soon. Just know that I'm not going to ever push you out of my life. I need you as much as I need Matt, maybe more on certain things...and, I love you.