I would think that I would be happy that my mother finally realized that we are not a happy family, but I'm not. She got a big dose of reality this evening when we talked about Beth. She went into town to do groceries by herself and came back with red eyes. I know that I am not happy with her, but she was rather upset and told me so. She feels bad that we do not feel as if we can trust her and talk to her completely as we can my father. I don't know if she really means it, but I hope so. Maybe, just maybe it's not too late for her. Maybe she can change and be a mother like she use to be. Maybe, but then again I don't see how it could happen. She has been like this too long to change. *Sigh* I wish it would happen. I want to have my mother back. I have Denise for a mother, but I need my real mother. I just wish it would happen. -Kat- And if I bleed I'll bleed Knowing you don't care And if I sleep Just to dream of you I'll wake without you there Isn't something missing? Isn't something.... Even though I'm the sacrifice You won't try for me not now Though I'd die to know you love me I'm alone.... Isn't something missing? Isn't someone missing me?