I know I killed Sky. He made the mistake in hurting Kay and cutting her off, but I killed him when they spoke. It's not my fault he cut her off again, but I know that just me being here did it. He laughed a few times at lunch Friday around me, but not much. Some reason I feel like I'm killing everyone off. Sometimes I wonder why I'm even pushing to remain happy. Sometimes I feel last year's path pulling hard on my soul. Sometimes I just want to give in to it. Then I remember Matt and Belle. I know they love me. Matt especially. We're forever, and Kay and me, I hope the same for us. We hurt each other, and that is my fault. I should just listen from now on. Plz friends, don't ask me what's wrong. Let me think about this for some time. I just want to cry right now. I need Matt's strength and Belle's trust. Everyone leaves me Abandon, Forgotten, Stranded, Left Behind -Kat-