I don't know what I'm doing to ppl anymore. I make some laugh, and they to me. I make some mad and that just hurts. I honestly don't know if I can keep this new me going. I just want to break my oath and cry. I want to cry my soul out of me again. I know that I can't if I want to keep what friends I still have, but what if they are hurting me and making me feel like I am scumb? Can I stop what they are doing to me? I don't see how. I've lost the strength to fight already. *sigh* Why now?! I can't I stay happy?!