Today was never ending. I would get a little breathing time but then back to the world of classes. My ankle is tender tonight. I haven't even done DDR this week and it's acting up. I will be doing that tomorrow or Thursday. Classes are almost over and I'm getting anxious to be out of this place. I am counting down the days till I am on the train out of South Bend. Running away to New York is one of the few thoughts that gets me through these days. I know college is suppose to be a good and great big part of your life, but it just feels like I'm being torn in two. I'm needed at home all the time, but I'm stuck here setting up for my career after school. I already have plans on going out of state for six months when I finish here. That isn't for another three years, hopefully five. I just hope something better will come along and make this lifestyle more durable. What I wouldn't give to be able to just let go of everything and enjoy myself, but I doubt that will ever happen. -Kat- I'm not the kind of person you think I am I'm not the anti-christ or the iron man I have a vision that I just can't control I feel I've lost my spirit and sold my soul Got no control I try to entertain you the best I can I wish I'd started walking before I ran But I still love the feeling I get from you I hope you'll never stop cause it gets me through yeah It gets me through yeah The feelings that I hide behind Sometimes reality's unkind The nightmares stalk for me at night I dread the long and lonely nights I'm not the kind of person you think I am I'm not the anti-christ or the iron man But I still love the feeling I get from you I hope you'll never stop cause it gets me through yeah I'm just trying live yeah (x4)