I had my last exam in math tonight. A reliever let me tell you. I also have my last lab in chem tomorrow morning. I so wanted to not come back for today and tomorrow, but with an exam, my last lab, and work, I had no choice. Well, I get to go home after Biology lecture that will end at 3:20. Beth is picking me up, but I ge the honors of driving home, which means I'll probably go to bed early tonight. I was too tired to drive back here Sunday with Mom but I did. I have to pack tomorrow after my lecture so when Beth get's here I should be near the end of packing. Most of my clothes are already home so this is just light packing. I can't wait to be home again. It's really hard to come back here when I know that where I belong right now is at home. Dad needs us for yard work and is upset with Mom. She was gone 5 of 7 days last week or was home but on the phone and it all dealt with Girl Scouts. Sometimes I wonder why we are even still a "family". Beth doesn't try, she apparently gets it from Mom. Dad and I are the only ones trying to make this family work. The song reminds me of how I had felt my entire junior year. I kept thinking Brad was going to come back and ask for forgivness. It was foolish to let that thought drown me for an entire year, but I guess I should be thankful. It got me closer to my friends and I did end up in a relationship because of that year, though that relationship didn't last like we had hoped. I don't know. I think having baggage is healthy for relationships as reminders of what not to do, but then they also kill relationships if that is all one dwells on. I don't know. Maybe I should just quit thinking all together. It's gotten me no where except here, alone and jaded.