Yesterday was the end of the good times I had. I had to work and Matt and his family went to the beach, where I was working. He took his friend Hanna and it started. I watched them and felt so left out as he interacted with her all day. I hated it. I wanted to scream, but if I had told him how it made me feel so little and weak he wouldn't have understood. He never will I guess. We broke up. I didn't want it. I begged him not to, but he didn't want to change. He didn't see that the time he spent with Hanna just hurt so much, it brought back too many painful memories from what Brad did to me. People told me that it wasn't going to last and I tried so hard to prove them all wrong. Well everyone, you were right. Matt and I didn't last. It was over the phone. Mom had found out how he had spent the entire day with Hanna and how she had worn a shirt when she came over with him Thursday evening that said "Your boyfriend and I make a good couple." Dad was furious and so was Mom. I tried to not think about it, but when I do, I am hurt too. I had hoped that when we had talked tonight that he would fight to help save our relationship but he didn't. He just left me and told me that for the past week he had been thinking about breaking up with me anyways. What happened to all the promises and the vows he gave me? I don't know. I honestly don't know. Right now I just want to curl up into a corner and cry, but I did that over the phone when we were talking. Even his mother sided with him, which was to be expected. She's a nice woman but she doesn't understand where I come from or my family. I just need to get away from here. Dad said to get lost in my job for a while and I would but my boss won't give me anymore days. Right now I feel so dead inside that it's scares me. I won't hang to him any longer than need be. I can't do that again. *Sigh* Why did this have to happen? I was so happy, but he wasn't. I should've known....I just should've known.