It's been four days since I've talked with Matt and it's kinda weird. I've not made any effort to talk with him through e-mail, messenger, or on the phone. I don't know why but it's actually okay with me. I think it goes back to the day we spent together. It was fun, but when we got back to his house I didn't feel like fun could define it. I have to give Denise credit. Now she has me listening to Barry Manilow when originally I would never listen to the man. He's good yet all the songs we listened to were sad love ballads. So just image your ex falling asleep in your lap and you sitting there having to listen to sad love ballads. Can you imagine the strain that your nerves go through. You're over the guy but in that situation it's so hard to forget it. True if that is the case that usually means that you're not, but I told him and myself I'm over him so I am. Whether I'm gonna admit to him Saturday was awkward is another question. The only he will find out for now is if he reads this entry but I doubt it. He hasn't been on the computer four about three days now. Well, my old laptop is gonna be up and running hopefully by this weekend and at the same time I should be getting my new laptop. With it I will be able to download mp3s into my mp3 player and upgrade some of the software I use including my msn messenger. My roommate sent me an e-mail and is inviting me and my family to dinner with her family. I believe we will be having dinner Thursday in West Lafayette since that is the only day my entire family can go. I'm working 6 days this weekend. My schedule for the rest of the week goes like this. Today: evening outside Thursday: off Friday: outside evening Saturday: Inside morning Sunday: outside evening It's cool with me cause I'll have a big check coming Sunday to buy my fride for my dorm room. Well, I've talked myself out of topics so I'll leave you all till later. -Kat- Midnight turn your face to the moonlight Let your memory lead you Open up enter in If you find there the meaning of what happiness is Then a new life will begin