Things got bad last night. My dad is worse in his depression and I can't help him at all. People don't see it because he is always hiding it, but it's there. It's there whenever we allow reality into the atmosphere. We can't fix my sister's pontiac unless Beth and I do another joint pay on it. One valve and the labor is what is going to kill us. Plus the whole issue with my collison 2 weeks ago. I just want curl up in a corner and cry for days. I don't know why life isn't throwing us a break, but I don't know how much more my family can go through without it being completely destroyed. I also found out that no matter if I do get lucky and get scholarships, I will have most of my first year paid for. That isn't good. That leaves me in the same position as my father. My second year, I will be flat broke. I had thinking about it and hate what is happening to my family. Things are soo bad that we can't even open the pool up this summer. We're gonna tear it down and that's the end of it. Why did this have to happen? Why can't something good happen for us just once? Ever since the business went under, everything has gone downhill and no breaks have come our way. *Sigh* I hate Logansport, I hate all the wealthy kids that don't have to work for a penny, and I hate the leaders of our nation. The war has left us broken and broke and they don't care. They don't care that what policies they're installing or destroying are killing families like mine. I hate them so much. -Kat- I try not to think About the pain inside Did you know you use to be My hero? All the things you said to me Cause it feels like You don't care anymore.