alrite... so this one will probably be pretty damn long, cuz i really got alot of shit to say. alright.. so i haven't written since tues, sorry bout that... but ok... umm so when i got in the car to go home on wed, my mom was like "i got a suprise at home" and all this shit, i was clueless... but then i got home, and my mom had 2 of those really small cakes, one said i think either congradulations or thank you, and the other said my name, then my mom gave me a card sayin that she was glad i stopped cutting adn that maybe she would do something like this every wed. meh i don't mind, at least she's happy. then that nite i have this karate class thing that i go to every mon and wed, so i went to that and one of my friends went. i was soooo happy, cuz i like him, and this cute guy in my class was jealous i think. meh but yeah at least that nite i was happy, then me and him hung around outside for a lil. thursday was gay... i was in the shower.. and when i got out.. my mom called me into the kitchen and started talkin bout my grades and shit. i mean i got a fuckin 71 in math, and she gets all pissed, then she emails my fuckin teachers and shit, which is really fuckin gay. god i hate her. meh and then today at skool, all i kept doing was scratchin my arm with my nails, i have really long nails so its good. then i wrote HATE in my arm with my nails, and i only got it out when i scratched over my arm a shit load. meh but whatever. god i really hate one of my friends. she's a real bitch, i mean not to me, well sometimes, and like i think she's playing, but god... i hate it... she's a bitch when she does it. and she plays guys and uses them so much, i fuckin hate it. she uses one of my closest friends, and i don't think he even kne it till i fuckin told him last nite. and she uses this other guy. and both of them have fuckin told her they love her, so many guys have, and i don't think she fuckin loves any of them. AND THEN! that stupid ass bitch kept askin me for my last few cigs and shit, and she was sayin all this shit like "who needs them more, me or you?" and blah blah blah. and so then, i finally bring them to her, and my fuckin friend that she uses, brought her a whole fuckin pack of reds. and she told me, so i asked her back for mine, and she wouldn't even fuckin give them back to me!!! god damn she pisses me off so fuckin much. then she stole this damn wristband that i stole from one of my friends, and she was wearin it, and i tried to take it back and shit, and then she fuckin lied to me and said it was one of her fuckin friends. so then i started walkin away, and she called me back, and she was like "call me" and then i turne to one of my friends and i was like "psh fuck that." god but she pisses me off so damn much. whatever, alrite i'm gonna go. sorry for this bein so long.